♥ Tuesday, May 29, 2007
today gt english oral..wa laus..damn hard!!
i tio cheryl chew..she was giving weird expressions when i was talking..
wen sheeny told me some tings i was filled wit fury..bt somehw managed to let it all go..
aft go loads of shops i bought a Topshop tee & Emily The Strange skirt..lol. we went Haagen Daz..sheeny & nett gt drinks with ice-cream inside..den gt eat at V8 cafe at bugis..hahas..everyting was great today..
on board cab tt tim rite de taxi driver scolded us cos we nv tell him we goin 3 places..he den kpkb say wad later he stopped de meter den we hav to get off le wad fcukk..las..i retorted tt if he wanted to go big circle oso can nt my business..den he say we vy rude liddat cos we nv tell him..i mean like..he nv ask wad..lol. took a pix of his liscence..gt chance complain him..plus wen i ask him gt xtra charge anot he replied,"wad chage? you want wad charge?"..kp lor..
with inspirator lost, i still have my creator (:
♥ Monday, May 28, 2007
lol today had my o lvl chinese paper..mati sia!!
i nearly doze off during d paper cos im jus siting infront of a wall lehz!!behind me beside me are all guys =.=..hw suay la! den de paper no time to do finish i tikam abit for de multiple choice =.=..lol saw joel & dexter's ic..horrid!..hahas mine too lol..nick dun lend =/..yesterday victoria brought me to see one of her frien frm msia who came sg to play..hahas he's wei jun..he vy good to us wor..treat us eat coffee bean with coffee (of course (: ) and pasta..lol..den when we are on de way to sentosa to mit him at first.. gt sum freigners gave us tickets to watch SONG OF THE SEA..vy nice sia..bt the storyline sibeh lame..n it oni last 20 min..aft tt we sid our goodbyes cos nex day i gt my Os..i slept at 5 so i vy tired..WHY? cos i went to watch pirates of carribean..nt vy nice..kahmun say she rather watch shrek 3..cute & funny hahas..nearly cannot go watch ltr..some1 nearly sabotage de trip..bt thank god joanne & chin seng was gracious..HAHA..kahmun was mourning bout it too..lol "she's" nt welcum into de movie anyways..de mvie starts at 1.50 so me, terrance & kahmun waited at starbucks and stone there for 2 hours..lol..we gt a reali gd seat so dosent matter..and we gossiped..^^..lots
life's great if everyday its like this..shd stick more with them =]
♥ Sunday, May 27, 2007
it dawn on me
why does your name appear everywhr i go?
its driving me to my limits
i saw that you both had smt common
& i realise wad was drawing me to both
you both had de same smile
it was wad aspired me to go near you
that particular trait of a smle gives me my confidence
my laughter & joy
my peace and endurance to comit into all i wanted to achieve for my beloved mother
(actually cos i felt tt i owe her..so i must repay my "debts")
lol. jus realise tt when i like some1 i will start to hav traits of that person.
EXAMPLE :
A always like to go arcade and wear blue shirts
i wil start to o it..n i duno why.
DUMB RITE?
i was tinking..wad happen to de original liying that i knew?
only GOD knows liying best..bcos He is watching over her..tending to her every needs..serving her just as she had served His people..she has only one desire from him and tt is to be able to sit on His lap..embrace the One who loved her even b4 she knew Him..
as i saw you kneel
i felt an urge to do so too
bt wad is this tt i am feeling in oppose to de situation?
life is odd
so are humans
he knew our hearts
so he forgave our selfish desires
at times i felt tt im so dirty..my whole body's stained..with wad i dont know..i didnt see any dirt bt yet i felt disgrace..disgrace tt im nt clean and pure in heart..i started resenting people..and led to sadistic thoughts..
2mr goin cut hair..((:
♥ Saturday, May 26, 2007
wanted to change my blog..den kinda lazy..
looking the pictures den tears started flowing..
the past is painful..
victoria's blog de song reminded me so much of HIM & samantha.
wish i could turn bak time and restart all over then i know wad i would nv hav done wrong and change it all..
human nature & im not perfect
i hate it all..can be perfect..
i hate rejects, hate disappointments
i wish i had charisma
what i want i could nv get..if i do..de future would start twisting to an ugly picture..
life's so sad
my reportbk is so ugly..so many underlines..
jus gt my june holiday timetable..almost all de days must go back..
seeing him is just as crusifying self
everytime i wrote ur name
i felt a pang
knowing its impossible
even God's nt on my side
♥ Sunday, May 20, 2007
lol..ytd saw tis reali cute guy at church and today SAW HIM AGAIN!had a glance n went bak to prayer..bummer..
hey im jus feeling bored rytes..everyone should hav some entertainment or you will crank up and spilt into pieces!
during Attributes ytd james said i look like a girl who went overseas and jus cum bak to sg..he said i look like an ABC lol.
Tx.
AngMohs Are Pretty~.
den hui fang came n ask me who is clara and said tt alot ppl say clara is vy pretty..hahas..bet Don thinks tt too..facing her everyday..xin dong le ma?
me & james were challenging ea other to go promote tis new book den de winner gets M&Ms!!
&s. of course its yours truely (:
given the choice
to choose
i would choose someone of the same league
♥ Wednesday, May 16, 2007
seeing's kg blog saying "faith give me the strength to carry on"..jus tinking wad is providing me strength?
i oni noe tt i love a blockhead who is slow in taking hints bt is still wonderfully cute!i noe he can give me a great future bt he can nv bring me to a greater level in JC so im doubting the fact tt we are probably uncompatible..its always..do you tink you can survive so long in a tennager relationship..naive ppl always didnt last long..THEY DIE YOUNG..
♥
i do nt noe who am i living for right tis moment..forgeting de foundation that build me up and tinking of smt more impt..i wan to study hard and get ahead with life so my parents dun nid to suffer so much becos of such a brat like me (: ..yes i admit i am and i wish i wasnt living in tis world
im nt spoilt cos wadeva i wanted when i was young wasnt given to me..hw can you even say i am a spoilt brat even when others had gotten much more than me? hw can you even say im more pampared than some1 who lived on a silver spoon since young when i didnt even get basic things a child should get..you judge too much and i am nt here for you to judge..
i had a horrid dream today agn..i was stabbed by others and i awoke feeling a sudden pain in de heart region..jus put every single burden down n relax and start studying!
victoria is tempting me to get a job and buy all those things which are in my wishlist LOL xD
♥ Wednesday, May 9, 2007
remembering the past is painful as my memories did nt contain much happiness in life..
as at that moment in time i reali feel like tormenting myself..why myself..i do nt noe de answer as well..i could oni think of myself..bt i remembered His words.."do not torture tis which I haven given you to safeguard".. i heard and i cried..oni Him can make me cry so bad..
im nt a crybaby cos i dun cry usually wen im sad..i will oni go into isolation mode..i will tear oni when im angry..de famous verse between Ms pillay n me "exasperated to tears"..(:
♥ Thursday, May 3, 2007
in wondering darkness i fear of blindness
i lust after you my precious dont leave me
now you noe my weakness its my defeat
w/o wits w/o act
cursed to die
the long struggle has ended bt the episode hasn't yet begun
